normality???

you don't realize till something happens, how much you rely on a great bit of normalicy in your life.... when all this crap at our house started, it was kinda fun... then after three weeks, it became something to endure.... not that it wasn't bad enough, my mother went for surgery, and we had to deal with her dealing with it... and her heightened paranoia of running water...needless to say with very few reservations, i'm glad it's over.... the holiday is coming.... and we can hopefully relax... right??? there's a new baby coming, but that's fun..... so life goes on.... you cry, get off your knees, dust yourself off, and get back to work.... i find it so hard to not shut down, when so much crap happens, to not turn my back at the rainbow he promised.... to not see the sun the clouds.... but he's stronger.... when i thought i would fall, because of the weight of my burdens... he gave me someone to lean on, or the strength to help myself.... he does work in mysterious ways, doesn't he....

shine your light down on me....
lift me up, so i can see......