touch the spirit...

i have been so blah lately about everything, but the one thing i really care about, scott touched on it, in his blog... Street church... you go, and it seems like nothing much at first....kinda creepy with all the guys staring at you... but then you stop dancing, sit down and watch the dynamic individuals you are surrounded with... not just the amazing people who trudge out in any weather to feed those who can't feed themsleves... not just the musicians who come out for the sheer presence of the Lord....and not just the people who clean up every night... but the people that come every week, off the street... we are all together, and people aren't leering ... laughing at them... we are all on the same plane it seems... and it's so cool... i take the time every day i go to look around at the different people... i see liz happily dancing with sandy...people laughing , crying, and singing their hearts out.... rose dancing with abandon...scott breaking free...susan shing her light in the background... it's so cool... oh man!!! if you haven't come, i urge it... don't be like me who took an year to come for the first time, and regreted it... it's a crazy wonderful experience... love shannon

well???

my friends and i have been talking a lot lately, because there is something i feel that they don't quite understand.... i've tried to explain parts of what it is... but it's really difficult to tell someone with words what you feel... it always ends up like blah blah blah... and gets taken ways you don't mean it, and it's frustrating, because i want them to know what i mean... but their minds don't think the same way... i think emotionally with everything.... and they think very differently.... as long as it's fixed , it's okay.... but to me, it's not like that... motivation is very key to me.... and i find it difficult too explain it to them,the ways i feel... because it usually come out bass ackwards... it will all straighten out eventually, but i fear a lot of misunderstanding in the future... well what do you do... ( besides hurtling yourself off a cliff, or banging your head on a wall).... got any ideas.... later gators.. curly

hey ho

well it's been a time for change.... i told my friend the other day that she had changed , and so we talked about it tonight... about how we all have many things in our presents and pasts that are haunting us and that we need to deal with.... mel and i have always been able to talk, we are just worried about losing the connections with our other halves... we love you guys you know who you are... and susie i'm sorry if i've put an aura of craziness around me lately... it's one of the things i'm working on... i love you so much, and the last things i want to do is alienate myself from one of the few people i'd die for... so please forgive me... love you lots shannon

heyhey

hey... yah life is getting back to normal.. sorta.... had my birthday party last night..... lots of fun... bp of course... got mulan... rock on.... and it was do cool hanging out with everyone... mel slept over too... it was a lot of fun... later alligator's ... see ya shannon