this is awesome...

we went to the all church service in the park today..... it was dull but we made it fun... anyways the girls and i were talking... i commented on how much the people in this church have been changing... it's really cool.... especially in the last two weeks.... i'm losing weight, we are dancing in church, we are opening up, we are hugging other people( yes i'm talking to you scott).... most of all we are letting other people in, and telling them things we've kept hidden for way!!!! too long.... it's like a constant state of emotion... i don't know whether or not i'm going to laugh, cry or dance next... but you know what, i don't care... i feel closer to God, this church, these people than i have ever felt.... ever ...i've come to the point that i don't care what people think, because i'm not going to not be ready because i'm afraid( fears are for pussies, and really God's holding you high above all this crap, what's to fear)... how would i feel if i went to heaven, and he asked me why i wouldn't dance.... ummm ahhhh ya see Lord.... bull i'm not going to hell cause i'm a wimp, and can't stand up for what i believe in, i've been sitting on my spiritual ass for way too long... it's time to Stand Up.... and in the holy words of Whoopi Goldberg " get up off of your seat".... i dare you, and me... no God dares you to do something different... it doesn't have to be big... but do something... one thing done wrong, is better than one million things not done.... so get out there help us change the world..... love shannon